Well I woke up at my new home for a while! My friend has a
house off the grid in Northern California that is trading me rent for work. I
told him what I am doing with my photo excursion and he said that I could stay
however long I need to get some photo stuff done. I really want to take a
journalism class online through Matador. It’s a three-month journalism class
that teaches you the basics and from then on, you have access to the site forever
on. So you can find jobs and projects on there. What a dream job, to get paid
for writing and photographing- one day… one day, soon! I have been manifesting
this for so long. I truly feel that some times are not the right time. But the
time is now. I can feel it. I have
worked so hard for this. I have thought
about this for some years now. I have journals from years ago that say, “I want
to be a published photographer, I want to be a National Geographic
photographer.” But it was not my time. I feel that I had to work and grow to
get to this point where I could drop everything and be in the right mind frame
to make it happen. But again, I also thank
the random guy at the bar who told me,
“You know you want to be taking photos that mean something, what are you
doing here? I give you 18 months to be published.” That really did it right there. I sold everything and gave my job some time
to hire someone new and I bolted. I have
never felt better about anything before. I have always felt alive and loved
life, but I can’t exactly explain how I feel now. I feel calm and confident. I
feel little and big at the same time. I am alone, but I don’t feel alone. I actually feel the most support than I ever
have by my friends and family. I feel like a strong woman. I feel whole. I just
feel…good. And on that note.. Im out. I love you
all.
